Today I'm wondering why I gave up on a career in music.
I'm trying to write a paper on Bonhoeffer, one of my favourite theologians whom I will probably marry if I could be polygamist and also marry Nouwen at the same time. Well, it might help if they were both still alive.
Anyway. I've been sitting here for the last four hours or so, and I only have half a page written. And somewhere in the middle of writing that half a page, I was briefly interrupted for twenty-minutes to explain online, the differences between perfect, imperfect, plagal and interrupted cadences to my cousin.
And then it hit me. I could have made it big teaching music theory. (Ok, so maybe not THAT big, but still.)
So why am I doing this??
Sigh.
30 March 2010
Holy Week #2: Mary Magdelene
The water jug felt a little heavier than usual today. As I lugged it along, a few droplets of water splattered out of the jug onto my skin. It was cool and so refreshing.
This was one of my favourite parts of the day -- coming to this well our forefathers built. There was something sacred about coming here in the middle of the day just to sit quietly for a little while and think. Mama said something the other day about what she had heard from the town gossips. Apparently I was not the only one who enjoyed this mid-afternoon time at the well by myself. Somewhere across town there was another woman who did the same, except her story caused a scandal. Apparently she had been going about her usual routine that day until she ran into a man resting by the well. Everything would have been fine if not for the fact that she was one of "the others." Or that she was... that she... she was... just like me.
And that man. What was he doing anyway? They called him Good Teacher, so how could he not have known that what he did that day would have caused a scandal? All this while I thought he would have been different from the other religious teachers. But yet he caused a scandal with a woman. A woman who was just like me. Did he realise the amount of embarrassment he would have caused her by what he did?
Naturally, I got curious. I started paying more attention to the crowds and when I finally saw him and his followers that day, I snuck in and followed them around. I could never let them find out who I was or they would have thrown me out. But I was certain he knew me. As much as I tried to avoid eye-contact with anyone, every once in a while he would look me in the eye, shaking me to my bones. Did he know? Would he give me away? But every single time that happened, it was a look of... well, something I could never really comprehend. He looked sincere, that much I figured out. But was that look of pity? Compassion? No one ever looked at me that way.
I had only seen that look on one other occasion. It was that day at the religious teacher's house. The Good Teacher had been invited over to eat. The food smelled so good that day and I was feasting till I could eat no more. That was when I caught the whiff of something. I can't exactly describe it, but I knew I liked it a lot. It was that perfume that came in an alabaster jar. I had been eyeing that jar for a long time but never found enough reason to purchase it for myself. And here I was in the middle of a feast and that fragrance filled the room. Naturally, curiosity got the better of me, but I had to remain undiscovered. So I sat quietly where I was, listening to the commotion all around.
Then I saw her. I couldn't see her face clearly, but her garments and her hair... She was... well, she was one of us. I had seen her around. Ahh, she was one of those. Some of us hid in the background trying to remain undiscovered. Others go around creating scandals. We were unclean women. We should know our place in society. The audacity she had to get so close!
I inched just a little closer to get a better view. My breath caught in my throat when I saw her standing behind the Good Teacher at his feet, weeping. Then she began to bathe his feet with her tears and to dry them with her hair. Then she continued kissing his feet and anointing them with the ointment. I sat frozen, trying to make sense of what just happened as the buzzing of the commotion around me grew louder. I heard snippets of the conversation, something along the lines of "judged rightly," and "no water for my feet," and "bathed my feet with her tears," and "hair" and "anointing" and "shown great love." And that was when I saw that look again. Except this time, amidst all the commotion, I heard him whisper, "Your sins are forgiven."
Then he looked me in the eye as if he had always known I was in the crowd, and gave me that same look. That was when I realised my cheeks were moist. And then I understood that look.
Compassion.
Forgiveness.
LOVE.
It wasn't too much later when the events of that weekend transpired. When the earth shook as the other Mary and I got there, I knew in my heart then.
He saw me. He loved me. I was free.
...
He saw himself in her story. All that he had held in to shield himself was known. For so long he had hidden himself away. Society told him they had no room for his failed marriage and struggles with marijuana and pornography. He was "one of the others," and "unclean."
But the Good Teacher saw. The Good Teacher knew. The Good Teacher set him free.
His fingers traced the outline of the Good Teacher's arm stretched out on the stained glass.
"Come, my son," the kind face portrayed on the stained glass seemed to gently whisper. Who was he to be found worthy to share that meal at the table with the Good Teacher?
Then he saw her. Mary Magdalene. She was at the table too.
An interpretation of John 4:1-26, Luke 7:36 - 8:3 and Matthew 28:1-10
This was one of my favourite parts of the day -- coming to this well our forefathers built. There was something sacred about coming here in the middle of the day just to sit quietly for a little while and think. Mama said something the other day about what she had heard from the town gossips. Apparently I was not the only one who enjoyed this mid-afternoon time at the well by myself. Somewhere across town there was another woman who did the same, except her story caused a scandal. Apparently she had been going about her usual routine that day until she ran into a man resting by the well. Everything would have been fine if not for the fact that she was one of "the others." Or that she was... that she... she was... just like me.
And that man. What was he doing anyway? They called him Good Teacher, so how could he not have known that what he did that day would have caused a scandal? All this while I thought he would have been different from the other religious teachers. But yet he caused a scandal with a woman. A woman who was just like me. Did he realise the amount of embarrassment he would have caused her by what he did?
Naturally, I got curious. I started paying more attention to the crowds and when I finally saw him and his followers that day, I snuck in and followed them around. I could never let them find out who I was or they would have thrown me out. But I was certain he knew me. As much as I tried to avoid eye-contact with anyone, every once in a while he would look me in the eye, shaking me to my bones. Did he know? Would he give me away? But every single time that happened, it was a look of... well, something I could never really comprehend. He looked sincere, that much I figured out. But was that look of pity? Compassion? No one ever looked at me that way.
I had only seen that look on one other occasion. It was that day at the religious teacher's house. The Good Teacher had been invited over to eat. The food smelled so good that day and I was feasting till I could eat no more. That was when I caught the whiff of something. I can't exactly describe it, but I knew I liked it a lot. It was that perfume that came in an alabaster jar. I had been eyeing that jar for a long time but never found enough reason to purchase it for myself. And here I was in the middle of a feast and that fragrance filled the room. Naturally, curiosity got the better of me, but I had to remain undiscovered. So I sat quietly where I was, listening to the commotion all around.
Then I saw her. I couldn't see her face clearly, but her garments and her hair... She was... well, she was one of us. I had seen her around. Ahh, she was one of those. Some of us hid in the background trying to remain undiscovered. Others go around creating scandals. We were unclean women. We should know our place in society. The audacity she had to get so close!
I inched just a little closer to get a better view. My breath caught in my throat when I saw her standing behind the Good Teacher at his feet, weeping. Then she began to bathe his feet with her tears and to dry them with her hair. Then she continued kissing his feet and anointing them with the ointment. I sat frozen, trying to make sense of what just happened as the buzzing of the commotion around me grew louder. I heard snippets of the conversation, something along the lines of "judged rightly," and "no water for my feet," and "bathed my feet with her tears," and "hair" and "anointing" and "shown great love." And that was when I saw that look again. Except this time, amidst all the commotion, I heard him whisper, "Your sins are forgiven."
Then he looked me in the eye as if he had always known I was in the crowd, and gave me that same look. That was when I realised my cheeks were moist. And then I understood that look.
Compassion.
Forgiveness.
LOVE.
It wasn't too much later when the events of that weekend transpired. When the earth shook as the other Mary and I got there, I knew in my heart then.
He saw me. He loved me. I was free.
...
He saw himself in her story. All that he had held in to shield himself was known. For so long he had hidden himself away. Society told him they had no room for his failed marriage and struggles with marijuana and pornography. He was "one of the others," and "unclean."
But the Good Teacher saw. The Good Teacher knew. The Good Teacher set him free.
His fingers traced the outline of the Good Teacher's arm stretched out on the stained glass.
"Come, my son," the kind face portrayed on the stained glass seemed to gently whisper. Who was he to be found worthy to share that meal at the table with the Good Teacher?
Then he saw her. Mary Magdalene. She was at the table too.
An interpretation of John 4:1-26, Luke 7:36 - 8:3 and Matthew 28:1-10
29 March 2010
Holy Week #1: Nicodemus
There was a big crowd out on the streets that day. The sound of the children's laughter and the songs of the young ladies dancing caught my attention and drew me to the balcony. The greens of the palm leaves intermingling with the brightly-coloured cloaks... It had to be a celebration of some kind.
Then I heard it over the songs, the laughter and the tambourines.
"Hosanna! Hosanna! Blessed is He who comes in the name of the Lord!"
I looked long and hard. And then I saw him riding on a donkey. Him -- the Blesphemer. The audacity he had to allow them to celebrate him like that!
Pulling my cloak on, I ran outside. Why hadn't anyone else stepped out to stop him? Had he pulled some kind of sorcery on the people that they did not recognise his blesphemy?
"Teacher!" I yelled, as I ran out in front of his donkey. "Order your disciples to stop!"
Ha! Looking back now, I should have known better than to act on impulse. I thought I could publicly embarrass him and did not even consider the possibility that he might turn violent. But instead, he calmly turned and faced me without stopping for too long, and whispered, "I tell you, if these were silent, the stones would shout out."
The gentle night breeze greeted my face as I stepped back out on the balcony. "The stones would shout out..." The Blesphemer's voice haunted me as I stared after the dust tracks of the celebration party that had passed through earlier that day. "The stones would shout out..."
For a long time, I had watched and heard about his blesphemy. Who was he anyway, and who gave him that authority to speak the way he does? There was something about his behaviour that made sense even while it left me bewildered. And what about those "miracles" he had been pulling off? He had authority alright. But from Yahweh? The others had said time and again that he couldn't be The One who had been promised. But what if they -- we -- were wrong?
Pulling on my cloak, I grabbed the oil lamp that hung outside and slipped out into the darkness of the night. He was a good teacher, alright and he knew the Scriptures pretty darn well. Perhaps he knew something we didn't know?
From what the others had said, his dwelling wasn't too far down the street. Ahh, there it was! I reached for the door, and then hesitated. Would he invite me in after what I tried to do that morning? But I needed to find out. I reached out again but this time the door flew open before I even got to knocking and there he stood. How had I never noticed the meek, graceful mannerisms about him? And his hands... They were hands of a labourer... What was it they said about him? Ah, yes. Son of Joseph the Carpenter. And then he became a religious teacher?
"Nicodemus." His voice interrupted my thoughts.
"Rabbi, we know you are a teacher who has come from God. For no one could perform the miraculous signs you are doing if God were not with him," was all I could manage to blurt out.
He smiled a smile that spelled patience, warmth and... oh, words fail to describe all the sensations I felt inside. He welcomed me in and offered me a warm drink.
"I tell you the truth, no one can see the kingdom of God unless he is born again ..."
We talked for a long time that night. He opened my eyes to so many things that I had failed to see. The others talked about tithing and fasting and the Sabbath and Passover, and here was a gentle man who simply demonstrated love.
I did not see him again. Not till much later when Joseph came to inform me of the events that had transpired. Oh, he was a good teacher indeed. What a loss.
...
Her fingers found themselves tracing the outline of his robe on the stained glass. She wasn't Nicodemus, but she sure had her share of doubts and questions of the Good Teacher's authority in her life. All her years of teaching had trained her to know the rights and wrongs of religiosity, but how often had she completely missed the Good Teacher?
"Come, my daughter," the kind face portrayed on the stained glass seemed to gently whisper as a single tear rolled down her cheek. Who was she to be found worthy to share that meal at the table with the Good Teacher?
Then she saw him. Nicodemus. He was at the table too.
An interpretation of Luke 19:28-40, John 3:1-21 and Luke 22:7-28.
Then I heard it over the songs, the laughter and the tambourines.
"Hosanna! Hosanna! Blessed is He who comes in the name of the Lord!"
I looked long and hard. And then I saw him riding on a donkey. Him -- the Blesphemer. The audacity he had to allow them to celebrate him like that!
Pulling my cloak on, I ran outside. Why hadn't anyone else stepped out to stop him? Had he pulled some kind of sorcery on the people that they did not recognise his blesphemy?
"Teacher!" I yelled, as I ran out in front of his donkey. "Order your disciples to stop!"
Ha! Looking back now, I should have known better than to act on impulse. I thought I could publicly embarrass him and did not even consider the possibility that he might turn violent. But instead, he calmly turned and faced me without stopping for too long, and whispered, "I tell you, if these were silent, the stones would shout out."
The gentle night breeze greeted my face as I stepped back out on the balcony. "The stones would shout out..." The Blesphemer's voice haunted me as I stared after the dust tracks of the celebration party that had passed through earlier that day. "The stones would shout out..."
For a long time, I had watched and heard about his blesphemy. Who was he anyway, and who gave him that authority to speak the way he does? There was something about his behaviour that made sense even while it left me bewildered. And what about those "miracles" he had been pulling off? He had authority alright. But from Yahweh? The others had said time and again that he couldn't be The One who had been promised. But what if they -- we -- were wrong?
Pulling on my cloak, I grabbed the oil lamp that hung outside and slipped out into the darkness of the night. He was a good teacher, alright and he knew the Scriptures pretty darn well. Perhaps he knew something we didn't know?
From what the others had said, his dwelling wasn't too far down the street. Ahh, there it was! I reached for the door, and then hesitated. Would he invite me in after what I tried to do that morning? But I needed to find out. I reached out again but this time the door flew open before I even got to knocking and there he stood. How had I never noticed the meek, graceful mannerisms about him? And his hands... They were hands of a labourer... What was it they said about him? Ah, yes. Son of Joseph the Carpenter. And then he became a religious teacher?
"Nicodemus." His voice interrupted my thoughts.
"Rabbi, we know you are a teacher who has come from God. For no one could perform the miraculous signs you are doing if God were not with him," was all I could manage to blurt out.
He smiled a smile that spelled patience, warmth and... oh, words fail to describe all the sensations I felt inside. He welcomed me in and offered me a warm drink.
"I tell you the truth, no one can see the kingdom of God unless he is born again ..."
We talked for a long time that night. He opened my eyes to so many things that I had failed to see. The others talked about tithing and fasting and the Sabbath and Passover, and here was a gentle man who simply demonstrated love.
I did not see him again. Not till much later when Joseph came to inform me of the events that had transpired. Oh, he was a good teacher indeed. What a loss.
...
Her fingers found themselves tracing the outline of his robe on the stained glass. She wasn't Nicodemus, but she sure had her share of doubts and questions of the Good Teacher's authority in her life. All her years of teaching had trained her to know the rights and wrongs of religiosity, but how often had she completely missed the Good Teacher?
"Come, my daughter," the kind face portrayed on the stained glass seemed to gently whisper as a single tear rolled down her cheek. Who was she to be found worthy to share that meal at the table with the Good Teacher?
Then she saw him. Nicodemus. He was at the table too.
An interpretation of Luke 19:28-40, John 3:1-21 and Luke 22:7-28.
Holy Week Series
So Holy Week snuck up on me again this year. Not that that's necessarily a bad thing, but sometimes I just wonder if I even pay attention to what Holy Week means throughout the rest of the year.
Sitting in church today, I was suddenly reminded of the series I wrote last year. I think I'm going to dig that out and re-publish those. Especially since I never quite got around to write the concluding piece for last year.
So watch this space if you're interested.
Sitting in church today, I was suddenly reminded of the series I wrote last year. I think I'm going to dig that out and re-publish those. Especially since I never quite got around to write the concluding piece for last year.
So watch this space if you're interested.
27 March 2010
Revelation on Love and the After-life...
I think I was hit in the face with a new revelation this morning.
I don't know much about the "after-life" besides what is found in the Bible. And even with that, the Bible may be the authority of my life, but that is because of my faith in it, not because of its complete historical accuracy. I could get into a debate about how some ancient mythologies parallel the creation story and the one about the virgin birth, but I won't.
Having said that, I can't claim that I will go to heaven or hell after my time is up with this physical body and place. Mostly because I don't know what I believe about heaven or hell anymore. Perhaps I haven't dug enough into the scriptures, so forgive me for that. But what I know about who I am, what I believe in, to whom I belong and how that relates to the physical place I live in has been slowly revealed to me. And that is what I hold on to. I have no control over my after-life either way.
And because of this, I am in no place to tell the next person about what will happen to them in their after-life if they don't share my beliefs. Revelation is personal - at least, that's what I believe for now.
So what about the Great Commission?
I can't say I know enough about "the good news of salvation." And to be honest, maybe I haven't read enough, but I don't find the word "salvation" used in either of the Great Commission scriptures (Matthew 28:18-20, Acts 1:8). But the good news for me is the knowledge that there is a Being whose very essence is love - for me, for my neighbour, and for the created world I live in. And this is the only thing I can bring to Judea, Samaria and the ends of the earth.
I don't know much about the "after-life" besides what is found in the Bible. And even with that, the Bible may be the authority of my life, but that is because of my faith in it, not because of its complete historical accuracy. I could get into a debate about how some ancient mythologies parallel the creation story and the one about the virgin birth, but I won't.
Having said that, I can't claim that I will go to heaven or hell after my time is up with this physical body and place. Mostly because I don't know what I believe about heaven or hell anymore. Perhaps I haven't dug enough into the scriptures, so forgive me for that. But what I know about who I am, what I believe in, to whom I belong and how that relates to the physical place I live in has been slowly revealed to me. And that is what I hold on to. I have no control over my after-life either way.
And because of this, I am in no place to tell the next person about what will happen to them in their after-life if they don't share my beliefs. Revelation is personal - at least, that's what I believe for now.
So what about the Great Commission?
I can't say I know enough about "the good news of salvation." And to be honest, maybe I haven't read enough, but I don't find the word "salvation" used in either of the Great Commission scriptures (Matthew 28:18-20, Acts 1:8). But the good news for me is the knowledge that there is a Being whose very essence is love - for me, for my neighbour, and for the created world I live in. And this is the only thing I can bring to Judea, Samaria and the ends of the earth.
25 March 2010
Eins, Zwei, Drei...
Alright, tonight I got my first round of fundraising stuff sent out. I don't think I realised till now that the last 2.5 years at Global Missions have equipped me really well for this fundraising and creating promotional pieces stuff that I'm working on now. Makes you really wonder if there's really someone up there moving pieces around for things to happen, huh?
Also, heard from Donna (from the Tri-S office) today about my ticket confirmation. Sechsundvierzig tagen! 46 days to Berlin!
Something that's been on my mind a fair bit the last week or so... I'm suddenly hit by an overwhelming feeling of appreciation for all the people in my life who give a hoot about what's going on. I know I cannot say thank you enough to each one of you who have come alongside the fundraising efforts in whatever small ways, but thank you.
Thank you to the Akan Datang band who have been faithfully rehearsing with me week after week for the last couple months or so. I know you're also having fun doing this, but... Thank you.
Thank you to Thonja Nicholson. You didn't have to do any of the stuff you're doing for the silent auction, but you're going all out, knowing that I cannot give you anything in return. No words, but thank you.
Thank you to all of you who have believed that Berlin will happen even in the moments that I stopped believing. To all the professors, the friends, the co-workers, the mentors... No words, but thank you.
Thank you to the coworkers for the encouraging words, and even your taunts of "quitter" to indirectly communicate your disappointment that my time at Global Missions wasn't quite long enough. For reminding me that my time there was a good thing... No words, but thank you.
And to all the other family and friends who have been faithfully praying and encouraging... No words, but thank you.
Thank you for giving to the Lord
I have a life that was changed
Thank you for giving to the Lord
I am so glad you gave
Also, heard from Donna (from the Tri-S office) today about my ticket confirmation. Sechsundvierzig tagen! 46 days to Berlin!
Something that's been on my mind a fair bit the last week or so... I'm suddenly hit by an overwhelming feeling of appreciation for all the people in my life who give a hoot about what's going on. I know I cannot say thank you enough to each one of you who have come alongside the fundraising efforts in whatever small ways, but thank you.
Thank you to the Akan Datang band who have been faithfully rehearsing with me week after week for the last couple months or so. I know you're also having fun doing this, but... Thank you.
Thank you to Thonja Nicholson. You didn't have to do any of the stuff you're doing for the silent auction, but you're going all out, knowing that I cannot give you anything in return. No words, but thank you.
Thank you to all of you who have believed that Berlin will happen even in the moments that I stopped believing. To all the professors, the friends, the co-workers, the mentors... No words, but thank you.
Thank you to the coworkers for the encouraging words, and even your taunts of "quitter" to indirectly communicate your disappointment that my time at Global Missions wasn't quite long enough. For reminding me that my time there was a good thing... No words, but thank you.
And to all the other family and friends who have been faithfully praying and encouraging... No words, but thank you.
Thank you for giving to the Lord
I have a life that was changed
Thank you for giving to the Lord
I am so glad you gave
24 March 2010
Brooklyn, New York
This past week was Spring Break at Anderson University. A friend of mine at the seminary had asked me earlier in the year if I would co-lead a Tri-S missions trip to New York with him, so of course I said yes. Anytime I get to go to a new place with people, I'm definitely up for it - and especially if it involved going there with a purpose more than just vacation.
So anyway, New York. The big city. Sadly, I wasn't as impressed with it as I thought I would be. I guess a part of it is that with all the hype you see on TV, all the glitz and glamour, my expectations for the big city were let down just a little bit. And I guess also having grown up in the big city myself, even THE Big City was just another city.Having said that, the trip was still great. We went with an organization called Center for Student Missions (CSM) that basically hosted us and made all the arrangements for us to visit several different ministry sites in the city. For three days, we travelled around Brooklyn, Manhattan, the Bronx and Harlem serving for a few hours at each of these ministry sites. If you're looking for an organization where your group can really plug into and serve on a more long-term, consistent basis, CSM is not what you're looking for. But for an introduction to urban ministry and homelessness, definitely go with CSM. They have a great program that includes a prayer walk/tour of the city that starts your entire week off with you seeing some of the different faces of the city and what you will be dealing with.
Probably the highlight of my week was seeing the group come together and watching the lightbulbs go off in their heads. Since this wasn't my first urban ministry experience, I'll 'fess up to being slightly frustrated at the little amount of time we got to spend at each of the sites we were at. But each night as we debriefed with the group and I was forced to answer questions like my highs and lows of the day, I had to reflect on the positives as well, which worked out really well. And as I heard about each of their reflections on thoughts, I was caught off-guard by how cynical and pessimistic I had gotten since my first urban ministry experience with Church on the Street in Atlanta. Being with the group this week restored some of the hopefulness in my own journey, and I think that will really help before I plunge into Berlin.
And probably the one thing that really frustrated me and is making me want to do something about is language - or my lack of it. There were a few occasions where either a better command of the Cantonese dialect or the ability to say more than "Dios le Bendiga" would have come in really handy. I've forgotten how much I take language for granted. And even though Arthur told me I didn't have to learn German to get around in Berlin, I'm realising that I really do want to be able to say more than "Guten Tag!" when I get there.
Something else that struck me was our group's concern with homelessness and the apathy of the more affluent city-dwellers towards that problem. Perhaps it's because I've been challenged to explain the idea of Gateway Berlin, my eyes were more open to the flip-side of the urban problem, this ugly word called apathy. Forgive me if I sound less than tolerant - I really don't mean to - but the homeless have shelters that feed them both physically and spiritually. And they have missions groups coming in to talk to them and walk with them. But what about the ones who are physically affluent but spiritually empty? Are our hearts broken for them as well, or do we judge them through our "better than you because I'm serving and you're apathetic" lenses?Break my heart for what breaks yours
Everything I am for your Kingdom's cause
17 February 2010
Latest on Fundraising...
Alright, so a couple weeks have gone by since I last wrote here. Since then, some things have developed that I will need to write about here, but this is a quick plug-in for the fundraising concert that I'm pulling together with the help of some of my amazing friends:
Jael is spending this summer interning with the Gateway Berlin team in Germany. To help raise funds, she is putting together a concert and silent auction with the help of her Park Place church family and friends from the Anderson area.
Join us for a relaxing evening of fun music, and check out the items to be auctioned - all for a good cause!
Some of the auction items:
homemade bread
art work by seminarian artist Amity LoVette Rees
A love offering will be taken at the end of the concert. If you would like more information on the Gateway Berlin team, or if you would like to contribute items toward the silent auction, please contact Jael by e-mail at jmtang@anderson.edu
See you there!
There's an event on Facebook already, and if you have not received the invitation, please let me know!
And finally, here's your quote for the day:
"They've finally come up with the perfect office computer. If it makes a mistake, it blames another computer."
-- Milton Berle
Jael is spending this summer interning with the Gateway Berlin team in Germany. To help raise funds, she is putting together a concert and silent auction with the help of her Park Place church family and friends from the Anderson area.
Join us for a relaxing evening of fun music, and check out the items to be auctioned - all for a good cause!
Some of the auction items:
homemade bread
art work by seminarian artist Amity LoVette Rees
A love offering will be taken at the end of the concert. If you would like more information on the Gateway Berlin team, or if you would like to contribute items toward the silent auction, please contact Jael by e-mail at jmtang@anderson.edu
See you there!
There's an event on Facebook already, and if you have not received the invitation, please let me know!
And finally, here's your quote for the day:
"They've finally come up with the perfect office computer. If it makes a mistake, it blames another computer."
-- Milton Berle
29 January 2010
Haiti Part Zwei and other stuff...
I think a part of why I chose to never blog about natural disasters and calamities of such is because there's this big hype about something happening. And then when the next new fad comes along, this old hype dies away. Then nobody cares anymore. It's not the cool thing to talk/blog about anymore.
I've been thinking a lot about that lately. How do we care about people in the long run? When something first happens, we respond quickly to the need, then after a while, we move on to the next thing. The next funeral. The next celebrity scandal. The next... whatever it may be. How do we care for the grieving ones after the funeral is over and the family is all gone and the house is silent again? How do we care for people after the "Hope for Haiti Now" concert is over and the disaster relief workers pull out of the area and move on with their lives? And how do we care for the disaster relief workers?
Lots of questions. No answers... at least, not yet.
In other news, here's a brief update on Berlin:
Had a good lunch meeting with Kelley, Patrick and Jamie. I'm excited to be working with them, and being thrown the real life questions about urban ministry. Still lots of details to be put together, like budgets and stuff, but I think we have most of it figured out.
Speaking of budgets, I may have found the perfect person to help me with my fundraising. Thonja, a lady who used to go to Chesterfield where I served as worship assistant for a year has offered to help lessen my load this semester in whatever way she can help. She and her husband Gary were also the key people who helped the youth group fundraise for the International Youth Convention two years ago.
Somehow, God still works in ways that I can't even begin to try to figure out.
I've been thinking a lot about that lately. How do we care about people in the long run? When something first happens, we respond quickly to the need, then after a while, we move on to the next thing. The next funeral. The next celebrity scandal. The next... whatever it may be. How do we care for the grieving ones after the funeral is over and the family is all gone and the house is silent again? How do we care for people after the "Hope for Haiti Now" concert is over and the disaster relief workers pull out of the area and move on with their lives? And how do we care for the disaster relief workers?
Lots of questions. No answers... at least, not yet.
In other news, here's a brief update on Berlin:
Had a good lunch meeting with Kelley, Patrick and Jamie. I'm excited to be working with them, and being thrown the real life questions about urban ministry. Still lots of details to be put together, like budgets and stuff, but I think we have most of it figured out.
Speaking of budgets, I may have found the perfect person to help me with my fundraising. Thonja, a lady who used to go to Chesterfield where I served as worship assistant for a year has offered to help lessen my load this semester in whatever way she can help. She and her husband Gary were also the key people who helped the youth group fundraise for the International Youth Convention two years ago.
Somehow, God still works in ways that I can't even begin to try to figure out.
28 January 2010
Haiti on my Mind...
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Haiti has been heavy on my mind today. I usually avoid blogging about natural disasters or calamities of some other kind because that's what everyone is doing. And I avoid doing the "cool thing" just for the sake of it. But Haiti has been heavy on my mind.
Perhaps a part of it comes from knowing the Ackermans personally. Allow me for just a second, to reminisce a little about the times I've gotten to spend with them.
Jacquie was pretty much my first American friend here. After a few episodes of drama, we finally found out that she had wanted to take me under her wing when I first got here, and I wanted her to as well. But because of those episodes of drama, we were both slightly nervous about taking the first step.
Then a couple years later, I met her crazy father, John. I knew John was a missionary only because Jacquie often talked about Haiti. First thoughts upon meeting him was that he was crazy - but in a fun way. He was quietly sarcastic, which always goes down well with me. I remember the last time they were in Anderson, John pulled me aside after service at Park Place one Sunday and asked if I was really doing ok. I froze a little because I hadn't expected one of our missionaries to care about us office staff. But John wasn't happy with "I'm good" or even "I'm busy." He wanted to know.
And then there was Jess. Jess is one of my favourite people to hug. And if you know me, you know I LIKE hugs. The first summer I met Jess, she would come visit me when I was working at the AU library when Jacquie was busy at her internship. We talked and laughed, and checked out the boys in the library. Then at the last convention, she was convinced I had a crush on Andrew, one of my co-workers (which, if you know both of us, you know how impossible that would be). We talked about her college applications since she was going to be a senior this year. I remembered trying to make her feel bad about not applying at AU, and how it didn't work.
And Jodie. Sweet lady, amazing teacher. I don't know her as well as I know the other three, but her gentle spirit and resilience, and just her love for her family and the people she worked with and for blow me away.
Before January 12, they were just friends I knew. After the earthquake, they were friends whose worlds had fallen apart right before their eyes.
Jacquie, being far away from everything - somewhat distanced, but not completely detached. I remember that feeling, though not quite at this magnitude.
John still continues doing what he does best with his nursing skills - except now the stress of even just living, finding food and buying gasoline can wear anyone down.
Jess' senior year will always be marked by this earthquake. College applications are complicated enough as it is. But how are they going to apply for financial aid and such when life has completely come to an abrupt halt like that?
Jodie resumed teaching school today to a one-room schoolhouse setting. She wrote, "Had 12 kids today, with probably a few more to come, from age four up through third grade. Felt a bit like herding cats all day combined with keeping corks under water. Hopefully it'll get a little easier when we all know what to expect."
And this is just one family that I have personal connection with. Today, Phil Murphy, one of our former missionaries came in after spending some time in Haiti. Phil and Lonnie have a few adopted Haitian grandchildren whom they were trying to bring in away from the chaos. But they were held at the customs in Florida for quite some time, one of whom had already had a traumatic experience when she was kidnapped some months ago. And their own son David is on meds to help him deal with this.
Then there's Laura Sellers, one of my favourite MK friends, daughter of Larry and LeAnn whose missionary experience began in Haiti even though they now call Cote d'Ivoire home. Laura was either born in Haiti or moved there shortly after. That's home for her too.
And the AU student whom I've never met, who didn't hear from his family for days after the quake happened. And Phyllis Newby, missionary from Jamaica to Haiti. And John's nurse Eden who lost her kids. And so many other stories of people I don't know. And all these pictures they keep sending.
Somedays I wonder, God why can't you just make it all better? I mean, you're God and all - you are able to. I'm also a theology student, so I can quickly rationalize it all away. But that doesn't stop the hurting. That doesn't change Jess' reality of her senior year. Or Eden's. Or the trauma that the Murphys' "grandkids" went through.
God, your people are crying. Will you bring them your comfort?
Haiti has been heavy on my mind today. I usually avoid blogging about natural disasters or calamities of some other kind because that's what everyone is doing. And I avoid doing the "cool thing" just for the sake of it. But Haiti has been heavy on my mind.
Perhaps a part of it comes from knowing the Ackermans personally. Allow me for just a second, to reminisce a little about the times I've gotten to spend with them.
Jacquie was pretty much my first American friend here. After a few episodes of drama, we finally found out that she had wanted to take me under her wing when I first got here, and I wanted her to as well. But because of those episodes of drama, we were both slightly nervous about taking the first step.
Then a couple years later, I met her crazy father, John. I knew John was a missionary only because Jacquie often talked about Haiti. First thoughts upon meeting him was that he was crazy - but in a fun way. He was quietly sarcastic, which always goes down well with me. I remember the last time they were in Anderson, John pulled me aside after service at Park Place one Sunday and asked if I was really doing ok. I froze a little because I hadn't expected one of our missionaries to care about us office staff. But John wasn't happy with "I'm good" or even "I'm busy." He wanted to know.
And then there was Jess. Jess is one of my favourite people to hug. And if you know me, you know I LIKE hugs. The first summer I met Jess, she would come visit me when I was working at the AU library when Jacquie was busy at her internship. We talked and laughed, and checked out the boys in the library. Then at the last convention, she was convinced I had a crush on Andrew, one of my co-workers (which, if you know both of us, you know how impossible that would be). We talked about her college applications since she was going to be a senior this year. I remembered trying to make her feel bad about not applying at AU, and how it didn't work.
And Jodie. Sweet lady, amazing teacher. I don't know her as well as I know the other three, but her gentle spirit and resilience, and just her love for her family and the people she worked with and for blow me away.
Before January 12, they were just friends I knew. After the earthquake, they were friends whose worlds had fallen apart right before their eyes.
Jacquie, being far away from everything - somewhat distanced, but not completely detached. I remember that feeling, though not quite at this magnitude.
John still continues doing what he does best with his nursing skills - except now the stress of even just living, finding food and buying gasoline can wear anyone down.
Jess' senior year will always be marked by this earthquake. College applications are complicated enough as it is. But how are they going to apply for financial aid and such when life has completely come to an abrupt halt like that?
Jodie resumed teaching school today to a one-room schoolhouse setting. She wrote, "Had 12 kids today, with probably a few more to come, from age four up through third grade. Felt a bit like herding cats all day combined with keeping corks under water. Hopefully it'll get a little easier when we all know what to expect."
And this is just one family that I have personal connection with. Today, Phil Murphy, one of our former missionaries came in after spending some time in Haiti. Phil and Lonnie have a few adopted Haitian grandchildren whom they were trying to bring in away from the chaos. But they were held at the customs in Florida for quite some time, one of whom had already had a traumatic experience when she was kidnapped some months ago. And their own son David is on meds to help him deal with this.
Then there's Laura Sellers, one of my favourite MK friends, daughter of Larry and LeAnn whose missionary experience began in Haiti even though they now call Cote d'Ivoire home. Laura was either born in Haiti or moved there shortly after. That's home for her too.
And the AU student whom I've never met, who didn't hear from his family for days after the quake happened. And Phyllis Newby, missionary from Jamaica to Haiti. And John's nurse Eden who lost her kids. And so many other stories of people I don't know. And all these pictures they keep sending.
Somedays I wonder, God why can't you just make it all better? I mean, you're God and all - you are able to. I'm also a theology student, so I can quickly rationalize it all away. But that doesn't stop the hurting. That doesn't change Jess' reality of her senior year. Or Eden's. Or the trauma that the Murphys' "grandkids" went through.
God, your people are crying. Will you bring them your comfort?
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